As Bhaddi looked at me,her eyes filling up with stinging tears,I knew that it was forever.And nothing could ever change that.
I had always prided at the fact that I had never needed anyone in my life and those that were a part of my life were there only because I had wanted them to be there.Little did I know that destiny had other plans for me.
Sailing through college being popular with a group of friends from a teen movie,hooting and screaming,driving in fast cars with blaring music and somehow managing decent grades through it all.That's what I came to experience in college.A fast life.
Stupidly stubborn,unknowingly arrogant and strangely apathetic to everyone's emotions,I had decided that that was the real me.Bhaisie and Bhaddi were tossed into my life as my roommates and they changed me forever.They weren't the hep,similar tastes in music,movies and books roomies I had been hoping for.The ones who would do everything together.We led separate college lives unaware of each other's presence until we stepped into our room as the day would draw to a close.
They both were quite the contrast of the conjured up images of roommates in my head but oh so much better.Bhaddi was an impenetrable shield of ideals and Bhaisie had an extensive range of emotions.But we fit together as 'pieces of a jigsaw puzzle'.
From the start,strangely,all of us settled into our tiny haven as comfortably as if we had known the each other for years.We had our moments of friction but sailed through choppy waters effortlessly.
Over the four years we developed mutual respect,understanding and admiration for each other.A friendship as beautiful as a newborn was blossoming.We cradled it,loved it and nurtured it until it took over our minds and hearts.We poured all our thoughts and emotions(good and evil) into it that it chained us to one another.And all our decisions,actions and thoughts were quietly ruled by our relationship.From our child it became the mother whose apron we wept in when the world was cruel.
I survived through 4 years of college politics,complex relationships and mental turmoils because of the stability Bhaddi emanated.She was my reality check,my anchor during storms.When my world would be turning upside down,topsy turvy,when everything went wrong,I held on to her for dear life.Bhaisie with her uncompromised zeal for life,love and everything sunny,taught me how to smile even when things were at their darkest.Her passion and enthusiasm for life made me see that the world really was beautiful.From the stubborn,cynical little twit that I was I had slowly started to mould into an empathetic and optimistic person.All the restlessness,impatience and irritability had made themselves scarce.I began to grow more confident and most importantly,started to love myself again.
I had unknowingly found the two who completed me at the right time at the right place.For all the time that I had absurdly prided at not needing anyone,I had been drowning in my own insecurities and fears.And Bhaddi and Bhaisie were both there to pull me out,never quitting on me.
As college life started to hum its funeral tune,I felt like a baby whose pacifier was being snatched away.Their value in my life became clearer.I had always needed them and they had always been there for,watching out for me.
So when I saw the tears in their eyes,as we stepped into the next phase of our lives separately,I realized how much I loved them.And it dawned on me,that I had found something that was pure,untainted by reality.I had found something I hadn’t come looking for.And all those fights,mindless laughter,night long talks,the grumpy mornings,all of it was so worth it.
I love you Bhaisie and Bhaddi.And this is my ode to awesomeness.An ode to friendship .
